Inchoate..

...this is how I always feel; It is just an untruth - a pack of lies - I am whole!

inchoate \in-KOH-it\, adjective:

1. In an initial or early stage; just begun.
2. Imperfectly formed or formulated.

What a great day it is today - I think - well it has just dawned and it is going to be a great day.
Wait for the news, the news you can use and choose!